“That’s great, because he does what you want to do”, said one of my closest friends when I told him about taking a lesson with Chris Vadala as a part of my grant project.
I didn’t think much about it at the time, but as I got into my car afterward, the thought stuck me: How is it that he knows what I want to do when I don’t even know what I want to do? I briefly entertained the thought of going back into the bar and asking my friend what he thought I wanted to do, but decided that I would marinate on it for a little while and ask him later.
The truth is, I’m not always sure what I want to do. I’m easily caught up different things that excite me at the time and I have a hard time staying focused. There are a few things that I do know…
- I enjoy being able to play and improvise on more than one instrument.
- I am the most passionate about creative music, particularly jazz, but I enjoy creating new music in any style.
- I need to be constantly challenged.
- What I truly want is for the stuff in my head to be able to come out through my horn. That would be the best.
Hopefully this grant project will help me get a couple of steps closer to doing what I want to do.